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Friday, December 7
So the Countdown Begins
We found out on Wednesday when Benc's departure date will be.
January 9. According to the ticker, that's a month and a day away. That's what it says today anyway.
It's surreal. When we got the good news that Benc would be going to Oz, I was both ecstatic and panicked. I wanted to simultaneously whoop with joy and cry. I was feeling the loneliness even before we learned about the departure date. But I was fighting it with thoughts of how to sell stuff, where to buy luggage...things to keep busy. At night I'd tear up in bed and then fall asleep.
But now that we know, I feel like everything's unreal. I feel kind of numb actually, and am unable to articulate just how blank I feel. Maybe the reality will settle in soon. It should. I have to deal with it now, so Ill be ok later. We agreed to be happy with each other and everything in this last month instead of sad.
And that begins now.
January 9. According to the ticker, that's a month and a day away. That's what it says today anyway.
It's surreal. When we got the good news that Benc would be going to Oz, I was both ecstatic and panicked. I wanted to simultaneously whoop with joy and cry. I was feeling the loneliness even before we learned about the departure date. But I was fighting it with thoughts of how to sell stuff, where to buy luggage...things to keep busy. At night I'd tear up in bed and then fall asleep.
But now that we know, I feel like everything's unreal. I feel kind of numb actually, and am unable to articulate just how blank I feel. Maybe the reality will settle in soon. It should. I have to deal with it now, so Ill be ok later. We agreed to be happy with each other and everything in this last month instead of sad.
And that begins now.
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